I am chained to my desk while dreaming of evening gowns and quiet jazz under a disco ball-sparkled sky. I have more hobbies than I can count on fingers and toes but never enough time for all of them. Big cities are exciting but I love being able to see the stars at night. I'm a mountain girl who loves cats and dogs equally. I frequently consider and reject the idea of graduate school, but I know I need to improve my skills and education to support myself more securely. Deep down inside, I want the "white picket fence, 2.5 kids, 'kiss the cook'-apron-wearing husband at the grill in his Hawaiian shirt, floral wallpaper in the den" dream, but it hasn't happened yet. So I focus on being the best person I can be and having faith that as I strive for that goal, other things will fall into place. I have occasional small moments of self-pity and bitterness, and frequent moments of intense gratitude and quiet happiness.
One of these days, I'll find an appropriate picture for my profile here.
Monday, November 24, 2008