I won't, but I did

I won't say what I said, but I said it. And it wasn't exactly the response I wanted, but it was pretty much the response I figured I'd get. But I said it. And now it's out there. And part of me is very relieved I don't have to worry about it slipping out when it feels like the exactly perfectly wrong time to say it even if it is on the tip of my tongue. And part of me is terrified about what comes next.

But it felt right. It really did.

Oh please oh please oh please be something good.

I wish I knew what he was thinking.