Tuesday, August 10, 2010

I'm tired

I'm tired.

I'm tired of being tired.

I'm tired of not sleeping well.

I'm tired of sleeping alone.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm not getting anywhere even though I'm accomplishing all sorts of tasks.

I'm tired of making all the decisions. Can someone else take over dinner planning this week?

I'm tired of not being heard.

I'm tired of being overlooked.

I'm tired of trying to keep up.

I'm tired of job hunting.

I'm tired of not even getting interviews.

I'm tired of people who flake out and/or can't commit to anything.

I'm tired of people who invite me in to their personal inner sanctum and then put me at arm's length the next day.

I'm tired of being alone all the time. Heaven knows I need my alone time sometimes, but this all the time thing is getting old.

But you know what?

I love knowing that I don't always feel this tired. This too shall pass. And besides, sleeping alone means that no one knows I haven't put the sheets back on my bed after washing them a week ago . . . Bed nest of sheets and pillows FTW!

In the meantime:


Cynthia said...

Well I can't read-and-run! Leaving you alone in the comments section would be patently unfair! While the single life has it's advantages, it also has it's downsides. However, I've learned it is also possible to be surrounded by people, even married, and still feel alone sometimes. Life is filled with peaks and valleys I guess.

Oh- I popped over from the MMB in case you were wondering where the weird lady came from! LOL!

Jinxie said...

Life is certainly a rollercoaster! I'm glad I'm back on the upswing.

Thanks for stopping by! Hope to see you again!