Thursday, July 2, 2009

Am I doing enough?

Later this year, I will be reaching a rather important career milestone. Naturally, I'm thrilled. In a not so surprising move, my father has offered to throw me a celebratory party.

On one condition.

That the guests at said party be comprised of mostly singles so that I can interact with single males who are impressed, rather than intimidated, by a woman who has reached this milestone.

I reassured him that it shouldn't be a problem, since most of my friends are singles rather than marrieds anyway.

But then I got to thinking. What's my dad saying? Is he saying that most of the men I know are boneheads who don't appreciate a woman of my caliber? Well, that's probably true.

It could be me though. I get the feeling that my dad doesn't think I'm doing enough to meet and, subsequently, date someone. However, I'd like to think I'm at least heading the right direction there. (On the personal front, I try to take care of myself physically, mentally, and spiritually, though I'm sure there is always something more I could be doing. We're talking socially here.)

I go to church every Sunday and attend a singles' ward (congregation), filled with men my age and, ideally, with the same fundamental beliefs and goals. I attend various church activities at least once or twice a week, if not more. I attend and sometimes throw other social functions, large and small.

Not only do I attend, I willingly get involved. I fulfill my church responsibility, which is one that allows me to get to know other people. In church, I sit somewhere new every week, which allows me to interact with new people all the time. I talk to people and try to be cordial, warm, and charming. I invite people to do things and every so often it's just one guy I invite out, which essentially means it's a date. I get out of my comfort zone. Often. I don't hug the corners and showers and dash out of various obligations as fast as possible.

If I'm not dating anyone, it's not for lack of trying. I just wonder if my dad sees it that way.